All of it. I was only myself again for...seconds before all this started, compared to months of quieted and muted emotions. I feel as though I have had to relearn everything about myself and my functions, all while fighting for our lives and confronting things like this.

[A gesture to the surroundings; bright, peaceful, and painfully hard to leave behind.]

Any machine would break under this kind of overclocking. Though a human hert can endure more, it makes the ordeal no less of a strain.