[ They gulp down their glass, instead of the careful, mild sips they usually take and then fix her a sign of emotion; a crooked smile that echoes an unsettling light previewed in their eyes. ]
Hah...alive...I do wonder...
It's a complicated matter. It may surprise you to hear myself say this, but for most of my life, I wasn't in control.
For almost 50,000 years I was in complete isolation or simply being used by someone else, to explain it in simple terms, but yet is nothing less than the truth. The only difference this time is that I lost that freedom of mind I had only just recently gained. Even my own freedom of movement.
Can you imagine...the feeling of stepping into that light, glimpsing that freedom you desperately sought for so long, and experiencing it for so little time, only for it to be snatched from you in a single moment? That it can be undone with someone's mere thought?
[ It felt like their whole entire world shattered and something inside of them splintered so thoroughly that they are forced to pick up the pieces. They can convey these words with ease right now, but...
The pain they experienced of feeling trapped, when associating with Lucheni or even Otto, of subconsciously seeing no way out from that programming...it mirrors that bottomless void of despair they felt so long ago. ]
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Hah...alive...I do wonder...
It's a complicated matter. It may surprise you to hear myself say this, but for most of my life, I wasn't in control.
For almost 50,000 years I was in complete isolation or simply being used by someone else, to explain it in simple terms, but yet is nothing less than the truth. The only difference this time is that I lost that freedom of mind I had only just recently gained. Even my own freedom of movement.
Can you imagine...the feeling of stepping into that light, glimpsing that freedom you desperately sought for so long, and experiencing it for so little time, only for it to be snatched from you in a single moment? That it can be undone with someone's mere thought?
[ It felt like their whole entire world shattered and something inside of them splintered so thoroughly that they are forced to pick up the pieces. They can convey these words with ease right now, but...
The pain they experienced of feeling trapped, when associating with Lucheni or even Otto, of subconsciously seeing no way out from that programming...it mirrors that bottomless void of despair they felt so long ago. ]