[At some point, during all of that, he ends up looking back at Raven, and this time he can't bring himself to look away.
I don't want to because it would be so much easier to die and I already found it and was willing to throw it away are the immediate thoughts, and frankly, he's not even sure which one is winning out anymore. The answer was obvious when he arrived in space.
You gotta at least last 'til we can share a drink over this madness.
It wasn't even something he recognized he was clinging so hard to until Dorothy snapped at him, Maybe I just want you to kill me, like you almost let me do to you. So I don't have to consider anything anymore, so maybe I can stop having this stupid hope that things will get better. And in that moment, the only thing he could think to do was offer her a hand, both because he could understand, at least somewhat, and because maybe he didn't want to see her walk down that same path. Would he have reacted the same if Raven hadn't reached out to him first?
What does he want?]
...You're right.
[Strangely, it isn't hard to admit that at all.]
At the very least there are a couple of people I owe a tremendous apology to. I certainly can't let anything happen to me before I have that opportunity.
cw: suicidal ideation, 1/2
I don't want to because it would be so much easier to die and I already found it and was willing to throw it away are the immediate thoughts, and frankly, he's not even sure which one is winning out anymore. The answer was obvious when he arrived in space.
You gotta at least last 'til we can share a drink over this madness.
It wasn't even something he recognized he was clinging so hard to until Dorothy snapped at him, Maybe I just want you to kill me, like you almost let me do to you. So I don't have to consider anything anymore, so maybe I can stop having this stupid hope that things will get better. And in that moment, the only thing he could think to do was offer her a hand, both because he could understand, at least somewhat, and because maybe he didn't want to see her walk down that same path. Would he have reacted the same if Raven hadn't reached out to him first?
What does he want?]
...You're right.
[Strangely, it isn't hard to admit that at all.]
At the very least there are a couple of people I owe a tremendous apology to. I certainly can't let anything happen to me before I have that opportunity.